Julio's Musings

Sitting on a bench by the ocean would be pretty great right now. I seem to have much on my mind at this moment, which is pretty irritating because I’m actually legitimately tired. It is 3am at this point and all.

The Loss of Friendship

You know the old saying (which is actually a poem I believe…don’t quote me on that!) of having friends for a season or a reason or a lifetime? I guess what I thought could be a lifetime friendship ended up being one of the other two, and it definitely came to a surprise end. Well, perhaps it was just a surprise to me, I’m not sure. It sucks when someone cuts you out of their life, especially when it seems it was very easy to cut you out. I didn’t realize I was so easy to push away, but apparently I am. I still have no real idea on why exactly this person cut me out, but I guess it’s what they wanted or needed so it’s probably for the best. I hope this person knows that I wish them all the happiness in the world because they deserve that.

I Want to Take a Trip!

It seems my friends are going on trips and I’m extremely jealous because I would love to go somewhere, too! I have some friends going to Italy and some others going to Washington DC, two places I’ve never been but would totally go to. Wish I could take a trip this year, but that’s definitely out of the question. But for next year I shall plan on going somewhere! Maybe to Italy to visit my friends. Oh, and I do also have to go to San Diego to visit my other friend who has been wanting me to go there, perhaps for Comic Con. Hmm…yeah, 2014 will be my traveling year! I’ll make that happen somehow.

Games and Books

I made a list of all the games that I own that I have not completed yet, and there are over 20 games that need to be completed. Well, need is a strong word. There are over 20 games that have yet to be completed. And, you know, I’m pretty sure I won’t even complete half the games on the list. Sometimes you play a game and then your time with it ends before you finish it. Sometimes you want to play other games that have come out. Most of the time you have a lack of time. With me, though, I tend to simply go through periods of time where I just don’t want to play video games. And that makes it hard to finish anything. The past couple of weeks I had decided to set aside some time to play some games that I actually do want to finish, and then the time comes and I just don’t play. I end up doing something else or, worse, doing nothing else. I end up spending my time doing absolutely nothing instead of doing what I had planned. I wonder why that is?

I also have four books that I need to start reading, which I actually intend to do. It’s rare when I buy books, but since someone gave me a Barnes & Noble gift card, it seemed like the perfect time to buy some. It’s actually kind of exciting to want to read, but, again, I have this problem of setting aside time to do so but then not doing it. I really wish I knew why that is…

But, hey, I’ll get to it sometime soon. Well, maybe…haha

Music (Maybe Good, But Probably Mostly Bad)

What are two of my favorite songs right now? Oh, this is embarrassing, but:

1. Come & Get It – Selena Gomez
2. Heart Attack – Demi Lovato

Yeah, I know, right? Completely embarrassing. Yet, I totally love these songs. You’re free to laugh at me if you wish, but I’m okay with it…mostly.

But, to a good song that’s also been stuck in my head of late is from one of my favorite episodes of Doctor Who. The song is called Chances and it’s by a group called Athlete. You can hear it in the scene below:

It starts around 1:43 into the clip. This also happens to be my favorite scene from that episode. Anyway, it’s a good song and I guess it has some sort of meaning for me at this moment.

When Did It Become 4AM?

Okay, it’s definitely time to end this post. I didn’t realize I’ve been writing/thinking for an hour now. Whoops! Time to try to sleep thing again.