Julio's Musings

I should just note right away that this blog post was written over the past two weeks, so the timeline is all sorts of screwed up.

• It has been quite some time since I have last written a blog post. My last written post was on March 16th. I figured life would get in the way of me doing a post a day and, indeed, life got in the way. Such is the way of things.
• This is “Just Thoughts 7.” The problem is, where is “Just Thoughts 6?” Well, it’s written down somewhere, but I never actually put it in a post. For some reason, I can’t find where I put it. I had typed it out, but I think it’s possible I ended up deleting it. So now I’m starting a new one, but since #6 was actually written, I didn’t want to make this one #6 and just went to #7. I suppose that’s a bit silly, but it’s what I ended up doing.
• I’m writing right now completely distracted. I’m sitting in the train station on my way home on some random day of school (note that whenever this will be posted is not necessarily the day I started writing it) and there is this really beautiful girl that I can see out of the corner of my eye. She’s just sitting listening to music (rather loudly, I might add). I’m trying not to glance over too much. I don’t wanna be creepy, haha. She is really pretty, though. Hmm…it really has been quite some time since I’ve had a woman in my life; well, in a more than platonic way. 
• A new day is here. The week is almost over, thankfully. It’s been a pretty busy week. I’ve been sick for about two weeks now and it’s definitely been a huge annoyance. I’m still stuck with a throat that hurts when I swallow and a cough that is extremely persistent, but I do feel more energetic than I have in a good deal of time. I don’t think I’ve been this sick in years. I don’t recall that last time I’ve had a cold/flu that has stayed with me for some long and hit me so hard. I guess I was due for it, huh?
• I can’t believe it’s already going to be May. How do these months fly by so quickly?
• Do you love what you do, whether it be work, school, or whatever it is you do? Has life gone the way you thought it would? Is it better, worse, or just different than what you had planned? These questions have been in my head lately.
• I’ve had a lot of times over the past year where I thought my life was ending up poorly. It isn’t at all what I thought it would be, definitely not what I had planned, and it just feels wrong in so many ways. I haven’t even found what I love to really do. I’m going to school for something I do well with, but I definitely don’t love it. I don’t have a romantic love in my life. There isn’t anything that feels like it’s just right or even close to perfect.
• What I realized after much thinking, though, is that all is as it should be. The path I’ve chosen may not be filled with things I’m super enthusiastic about, but at the same time I think it’s leading towards greater things. I have no proof of this; it’s just a feeling that I have. Perhaps it’s just hope. I lost hope for just about everything almost a year ago during my period of changes and sadness, and yet now I’ve been feeling hopeful for my future.
• I’m going to get back to writing those steps for keeping up your spirit. I left off on Step 3, and I have Step 4 already written. I’m going to have to find another way to post them, though. I know if I try to do that whole one a day thing again it will never get done. Perhaps there will be a few per post instead. Hmm…we shall see.
• So Osama bin Laden has been killed. See, Donald Trump. When President Obama said he had other things to deal with instead of this whole birth certificate nonsense, he was telling the truth. So stop trying to act like you’re doing important things and let the President deal with the country’s business. 
• Don’t misunderstand me. I think it’s important for the citizens to question what their elected officials are doing whether you agree with their policies or not. I don’t agree with everything the President has done, just like I didn’t agree with everything President Bush did. But Donald Trump is just trying to get publicity for himself and not really doing anything to better the problems of the country. 
• What a quiet train ride this has been. It seems lately my train rides have been anything but quiet. I’ve had to deal with people with loud music, people that talk on their cell phones way too loudly, people who have food with super strong odors (I guess that has nothing to do with it being quiet or not), and I’ve even gotten to see a drunk man argue with a conductor and almost get into a fight with another conductor. 
• Oh, I spoke too soon. The person behind me is now speaking loudly on her phone. Well that figures. I should learn to not speak so soon.
• Had some Cold Stone ice cream with Nikki tonight. OMG it was so delicious! I have surely missed going there. I think she and I will have to make more trips there during the summer months.

Things I’m Currently Sick of:

1. Things never going completely to plan. I realize it’s hard for that to happen, but really, plans can work out fully every once in a while at least.
2. This cold I’ve been fighting off for 3 weeks now (I realize I wrote 2 weeks above, but I wrote that a week ago). Every time I think I’ve got it beat, I start coughing again. GRRR!
3. People being stupid. It’s really okay to not be stupid, I promise.

Things I’m Not Currently Sick of:

1. Ice Cream (I probably like it a little too much right now, haha).
2. My friends. They’re pretty cool people.
3. Hayley Williams (pictured below looking super hot).

Songs Currently Stuck in My Head:

1. Avril Lavigne – Smile (iTunes, Amazon)

“And that’s why I smile. It’s been a while since every day and everything has felt this right. And now you turn it all around. And suddenly you’re all I need. The reason why I smile.”

2. ALL CAPS – Don’t Unplug Me (iTunes, Amazon)

“Don’t unplug me or just shut me down. Please just love me with your steel heart. I’d reboot you if you’d look at me with those cold eyes one more time.”

3. ADELE – Rolling in the Deep (iTunes, Amazon)

 ”We could have had it all. Rolling in the deep. You had my heart inside of your hand and you played it to the beat.”