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Shining Light, Even in Death
A year has passed. Time is a funny thing. 2022 was simultaneously such a long year and, yet, I’m still in disbelief that it has already been a year. Every day since my mom passed, I would think to myself: “A year ago she was still here with us. A year ago we were doing Continue reading
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Recurrence and Choice
“And here we go again.” I thought that to myself a few months ago now. I could feel it coming on: that uneasiness, the loneliness, the extreme anxiety, the fear, the need to hide from life, and the thoughts of, perhaps, not needing to be here anymore. Two years after getting off anti-depressants, I was Continue reading
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The View from the Floor
Over the past 8 years, as I’ve gone through various bouts of depression, I had found that one of my biggest warning signs of things getting worse was when I started noticing the view from the floor. This view has had a few incarnations: The view of staring up at the same spot on the Continue reading
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Goodbye Forever, Facebook
Today I’m just going to talk about random topics that are all over the place (Yeah, I know, nothing new). FacebookI have been off of Facebook for six months now. Six whole months! I remember that day in August, when I was looking through my news feed and seeing so many complaints and drama about Continue reading
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Goals and Other Things
It’s the beginning of the year which typically means that’s it’s time for everyone to have their New Year’s Resolutions for 2014. I’ve never really been a fan of New Year’s Resolutions. Everyone starts off the year highly optimistic with many hopes of doing all of these wonderfully fantastic things, but in the end people Continue reading
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Surviving Christmas
Christmas is almost upon us. To be completely honest, I have absolutely zero Christmas spirit. Most of the time I have a little bit. Last year I felt super great about Christmas. This year, though, I’m basically just trying to get through the day and hoping it will pass quickly. If you read my last Continue reading
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When 30 Doesn’t Start So Well
I have a confession: One of the first things I did on my 30th birthday was cry. Now, before you start thinking that I cried because I turned 30, that wasn’t the reason. While turning 30 was one of those big milestone type of things, one that I wasn’t thrilled about getting to, it wasn’t Continue reading
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Up and Thinking…Again…
I haven’t been able to sleep well for a few weeks now, it seems. This is not a fun thing, especially since I had worked so hard all of last year to get a decent sleeping pattern. I really hope that this changes soon because it is not making for a happy Julio (not that Continue reading
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When You Can’t Sleep, Write
Sitting on a bench by the ocean would be pretty great right now. I seem to have much on my mind at this moment, which is pretty irritating because I’m actually legitimately tired. It is 3am at this point and all. The Loss of FriendshipYou know the old saying (which is actually a poem I Continue reading
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When the Mistakes Pile On
I’ve been reminded of my mistakes lately. I’ve made many mistakes in my life. I suppose that’s true for everyone. However, being reminded of my mistakes has been making me look back to try and figure out how I could have done things different. I hate doing that. It means I end up second guessing Continue reading
About Me
Overly sarcastic | Techie | Often lost in my thoughts | Slowly getting better at life | Don’t seem to tweet enough | Playing games as jnabisco1
Julio's Musings 