I spent a good 20 minutes just standing in the rain this evening. It was amazing! I know I’m one of the few that actually goes out and just stands in the rain, but it can give you such a rejuvenating feeling. It’s also good at helping you process your thoughts or making your stress melt away. Well, at least for me it does. Thankfully, I wasn’t stressed out or anything, so I simply got to enjoy being in the rain with my own thoughts.
- Weddings, despite the stress and whatnot they can bring upon those who are planning it, ultimately end up going well and everyone has fun. Parties are fun!
- I still suck at dancing. I shall never gain any sort of rhythm. It’s just not meant to be. Though I’ve never tried dancing while being drunk. I’ll probably have to drink an excessive amount of alcohol to dance well. Obviously, drunkenness isn’t going to just give me rhythm (well, maybe it would…), but really the biggest problem is that, no matter where I’m at or who I’m with, my mind always holds me back. Never do I simply “let loose.” I’m pretty sure it’s impossible for me to do so.
- It was a nice wedding. Thankfully it wasn’t as hot as it was earlier in the day (though perhaps that’s because we were in the shade), so it wasn’t horribly unbearable outside for the ceremony. And it went well and it was good. And, like I said above, parties are fun, and the reception was definitely fun.
- One day I’ll actually speak in a clear voice and not speak so quietly. I definitely need to work on my diction. You know, so people will understand me and all.
- The wedding did remind me of the fact that it’s been so long since I’ve had anyone special in my life. It’s been a long long time since I’ve last had or felt that type of love. It’s almost depressing in a way.
- Strangely, though I’m not even sure why, my time in the rain made me think that I probably will never find somebody. I am pretty sure I’m not meant to ever find love. Now, before you people who read this from the link I’ll post on Facebook leave me comments on there arguing with me about that, I’ll give you this: there is a possibility that I’m wrong. It’s not likely since I’m always right, but that possibility is there.
- I can’t even recall the last time I met someone new that interested me; someone that I wanted to go up and talk to. Hmm…actually, I do remember the last time. It was back in 2007. Five years…wow.
- Maybe I’m just not really looking or just overlooking people or something. But it’s not like anyone’s been interested in me, either.
- It really is too bad that Kelly Clarkson has a boyfriend!
- Okay, enough about that silliness.
- You know, speaking of Kelly Clarkson: I tried watching the show she’s on, Duets. Really, I tried. But I just don’t keep up with it at all and, shockingly, I just don’t care about it. You would think I’d be jumping at the chance to see Kelly on tv every single week, but I just don’t think I like the show. I am the worst KC fan ever, I’m sure.
- So, my current favorite song (other than Call Me Maybe…since it’s just always in my head…still…) is Distance by Christina Perri (w/Jason Mraz). It’s another song I’m always singing to myself for some reason.
- “Please don’t stand so close to me, I’m having trouble breathing. I’m afraid of what you’ll see right now. I’ll give you everything I am, all my broken heartbeats, until I know you’ll understand. And I will make sure to keep my distance. Say ‘I love you’ when you’re not listening. And how long can we keep this up?”
- Yup, I wrote that by heart, too (just like I did Call Me Maybe in my post a few days ago). The song, as a whole, seems to be about a new relationship. One of them is in love and isn’t quite sure if the other person is. They want the other person to admit their feelings first so they can be open with how they feel. Until that time, this person will keep their guard up (keeping their distance) and only say how they feel to themselves when the other will not hear.
- I’m not in any sort of situation like that (obviously since I went on about not finding love above), but it’s such a sweet sounding song. I’ve had in my mind for a month now. Plus, who hasn’t felt strong feelings they didn’t want to speak out loud about until they knew the other person felt the same way? Seems like something most everyone can relate to.
- The Cubs are horrible. Oh so so horrible. They are horrible beyond my wildest expectations. I expected them to be bad, but they are the worst Cubs team I’ve seen in oh-so-long. I really hope these struggles pay off in a few years because, if not, I don’t know how long the fans could put up with having a team THAT bad!
- Finally, it’s Father’s Day. My father is pretty awesome. My brother is a great father, too. If I do, by chance, ever somehow become a father, hopefully I’ll be as good at it as they are. That would be swell.
Things I am sick of:
- 90 degree temperatures. And it’s going to be in the 90s all week.
- Painful dreams.
- Not yet being good enough (in my opinion).
Things I am not sick of:
- Rain (well, duh).
- Life (I suppose that’s good, huh?)
- Kelly Clarkson (despite her having a boyfriend and me NOT like Duets).
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