Julio's Musings

For Just Thoughts X (aka 10), I decided to just write down things I want to or at one point wanted to say to people but won’t say to people. It goes against my whole thought that you should just tell people what you’re thinking and/or feeling, but…well, I guess I don’t have an excuse for not following my own advice. I’m just doing it this way.

Some of these could be about myself. Some may apply to multiple people. These are not in any sort of order. They are jumbled up, so a bullet point may not apply to the same person as the one preceding it. It’s just a bunch of thoughts thrown together like I tend to do in my own mind.

• Sometimes I feel like I can’t talk to you the way I used to be able to. I know things change, but it’s still a bit sad when they change like that.
• I thought I was just angry about the way you acted towards me, but I’ve come to realize that my feelings were actually just hurt, too.
• I know you have no problem dishing it out when you feel people need it, but you also need to learn how to take it when you need it.
• I hope that if/when I find someone, that they even half the person you are.
• I’m sorry for being annoyed with you when you didn’t actually do anything. It’s all part of a process I’m going through. It won’t stay that way.
• You need to put your whole self into that if you really want to succeed. The only thing stopping you is you.
• The truth is, people understand far better than you’ve been giving them credit for. Trust those that care about you.
• I know that you’re feeling hurt and disappointed, but give it a little more time. Don’t give up on others just yet.
• You could have this great thing with that person, but you really don’t think so. It’s a shame.
• Sometimes I wonder how you don’t think I’m certifiably crazy.
• It seems like things are about to get really tough in some ways, but keep pushing towards you goal. It’s been a long time, but you can still be accomplished.
• I used to think about you constantly, but I don’t do that anymore. It’s kind of nice.
• You think that the problem is that you’re not good enough, and that could be because of how you were treated in the past. But you need to remember, even with things not being perfect, you’re good and you’re ready.
• I hope you’ll still be around once they’re gone.
• I wish someone would look at me like the way you look at that person when you don’t realize people are watching.
• Stop being so incredibly nosey. You don’t need to know every single little thing.
• It still boggles my mind how you don’t realize what you did.
• You have more potential to do well in this world and to do good for this world than you know.
• You really don’t need to over explain everything. Really, it’ll be alright.
• Seriously, what the heck were you thinking?! How was that even remotely a good idea? Grow the heck up!
• When you said that wouldn’t work, I was kind of hurt. But I totally get it and you were right.
• You don’t realize it, but sometimes you make me feel like my faith isn’t good enough.
• Even with things seemingly taking forever, trust that all you want and need will become a reality.
• You’re pretty. Stop thinking otherwise.
• You’re amazing. Stop being so freaking insecure.
• Things are tough, but they will get better for you, even if it is slowly but surely.
• You are where you should be right now, but keep believing and knowing that greater things are on the horizon.

There may be more things to say, but none that come to my mind at this moment. I suppose that means it’s a good time to stop. 

Things I’m Currently Sick of:

1. Moody people (including myself)
2. Uncertainty
3. Monkeys (because it’s the first word that pops into my head when I want to write something)

Things I’m Not Currently Sick of:

1. Cake (thankfully there isn’t any more because I’d eat it all, which isn’t good)
2. Water (because I’ve been drinking an awful lot of it of late. So much so I tried drinking more pop this weekend to even it out. Not a good plan! I failed at that plan, anyway Hahaha!)
3. Kelly Clarkson (because her new song Mr. Know It All (iTunes, Amazon) came out and I keep listening to it. Definitely looking forward to her new album next month!)