Julio's Musings

Here we are in a brand new year. That must mean I have brand new thoughts too! Okay, actually, it doesn’t mean that. I have the same thoughts, but hey, at least I’m putting them out there in a new year!

• Holy crap I cannot believe the year of hell that was 2010 is finally finally over!
• I am seriously incredibly thrilled that I somehow survived the year. There were so many times when I thought it would never end. But it did, so whoo!
• Let’s just hope the next year of hell in my life won’t be for a very very very long time!
• So, now that we’re in a new year, what will be coming up ahead?
• Well, I still have no idea!
• Last year I had all of these crazy mixed up ideas of what was going to happen and how everything would somehow be perfect. That was a poor plan, haha!
• This year I do have goals, but they are far more modest.
• My first goal, and most important for me actually, is to either finish school or complete enough to finish at the beginning of next year. It’s all finally working out in that direction, and so I’d like to continue on that track.
• Another goal is to find employment.
• Let me tell you, being unemployed sucks! I absolutely positively abhor the feeling of knowing everyone else is working while I’m doing nothing but studying and homework.
• It’s something that’s been weighing on me a lot more of late, especially with being pretty broke during the Christmas season. It’s something I definitely do not want to have a repeat of.
• Next up is returning to the more healthier side of things.
• I’m pretty sure I stressed myself out a ton between November and now, which naturally caused a few sleep issues and other stupid unnecessary issues. That ends here.
• It’s time to relax my mind more again and be at peace enough to fall asleep with ease. Luckily I already know some things I have to do to fix that, so that’s super helpful.
• The final goal is actually simple and hard at the same time (I love contradictions!)
• In my birthday post I actually said I’m throwing all my goals out. Well, I changed that to making my goals a bit less silly.
• The last thing I said in that post was that I’m going to just live and see where life takes me and I still stand by that goal.
• It’s important to just experience life. Yes, do things to help you and further your knowledge and whatnot, but we must also just take the time to experience the things around us.
• I spent a lot of the first half of last year trying to essentially manipulate how things should be and mold them into what I wanted. Let me tell you, it just makes things so much worse!
• There are times (very few times) when I wonder what it would have been like if I had stuck true to myself and allowed things to go the way there were obviously going without fighting them so much. I didn’t know when to quit, and perhaps things would have worked out differently if I had quit sooner.
• This year, I shall remember to, yeah, fight for what I want, but also know not to push so hard past my limits that everything blows up! I shall know when it’s time to let go, and if by chance I can’t see when that’s supposed to be, listen to those who love me because I know now they’ll see it.

In conclusion: I shall be continue my pursuit of knowledge, find my way back to being happily employed (I really miss working. It’s sad how much I actually love working…and then complaining about it, haha j/k…), continue working on my overall health, and to experience life more without fighting everything! I think that probably means I have to be less stubborn. You know, that’s ok. I think I can be less stubborn.

Things I’m currently sick of:

1. People who keep starting drama.
2. Dexter Season 3 still not being on Netflix streaming!
3. My friends and family (and me) getting sick.

Things I’m not currently sick of:

1. My “Whatever” clock
2. Spending time with all my loved ones
3. Pigs (especially the piggy bank I keep on my messy desk).